Sunday, August 21, 2005

Depression

The root cause behind my depression is starving myself of good food (eating only easy food, or not eating enough...) and music that messes with the emotions... This I must remember. But I am not about to change...

Saturday, August 20, 2005

Cyborgs and Synthetics

I am strangely attracted to fembots, and man-made women... I don't think that is so much because I am so in love with technology as in love with the idea that I could have something that would be self-aware, and intelligent, and a little beyond my control, but devoted to me (or even created entirely to serve me). That is why the robot in Flubber is so attractive... her image is attractive and curvy sure... but it isn't solid, and so is really just that.. an image... but it is the intelligent being that is devoted to the doctor that really makes her desirable. Perhaps this is connected to the way we imitate our creator (albeit in a limited fashion) and are made in His image. He created a race of self-aware, intelligent creatures, and then tested them to see if they would be devoted entirely to Him. Or... maybe man-made (or at least synthetic) women are interesting because they are so simple and logical, and naive. They aren't connected to alot of family and they are so wonderfully logical (but that gets back to the created for us part...) Wow - major megalomania... too much science fiction. But finding a woman that isn't complicated (internally or by family ties), but is intelligent... very difficult to find indeed.