Saturday, January 28, 2006
Sunday, January 22, 2006
Tuesday, January 10, 2006
Depression
Non-depressive people don't understand why depressive people don't mind being sad. Of course someone who is used to warmth will pull back from icy water... but someone who lives in the cold and dark reacts differently. They pull in and curl up in a ball. Instead of struggling to get out, they stop moving, and curl up in a ball to conserve their strength. Instead of expending their strength to get out and find help, they curl up and dive deeper. At least down here it isn't frozen.
Sunday, January 08, 2006
Jona
I am starting to see myself in this man. I too am running from God (1:3). I too am headed the other way. I too am causing harm to those around me, by my destructive rebellion(1:5). Am I going to be cast overboard? (1:12) Is that what it will take? Am I to be a witness by my mistakes, like Jonah? (1:16)
I too only call on God from the belly of the whale...
I too have a flair for the dramatic (4:3). I too am discontented with the way God runs things. I too have a tendency to go away and pout (4:5).
And I too need His mercy(3:10), and patience(4:6-11), as I learn to walk His way.
I too only call on God from the belly of the whale...
I too have a flair for the dramatic (4:3). I too am discontented with the way God runs things. I too have a tendency to go away and pout (4:5).
And I too need His mercy(3:10), and patience(4:6-11), as I learn to walk His way.
Evidence
Before I forget, I was talking to a new good friend over the new year and we talked about alot of things, which was very helpful. It helped me move past the content of my last post. It seems that we as believers are God's evidence. We are the proof that God exists... we are not perfect by any means, but we are so much better, and the only explanation is God's existence. God could have made magical proofs, or lightning to strike down anyone who doubted His existence. After all, he made us all... and he could easily un-make us... but He said let there be light, and earth and animals, and man, and He doesn't like to go back on His Word. So now, since we have decided to crack His perfect creation, He chooses to develop ordinary proof of His love and mercy, in people that are uncharacteristically unselfish, or unbelievably dependable. Our discussion ended with me realising that I was a rather poor proof of His existence... I actually was showing doubt myself. However, I know He exists, because I know who I am, and I know how awful I should be becoming, but He has intervened... and lifted me.